Babysitters. A necessity. An unfortunate necessity that I have finally come to realize I need. Not that babysitters are bad. Not at all. I was a babysitter. But I now understand the parents wanting me to answer the phone, have Red Cross training and be punctual.
Today was a first in our house. A babysitter. Not that my kids were only watched by family up until this point. They had their favorite Nanny Amie to keep them company last summer. She was wonderful and was actually one of the kids I babysat. Life certainly does come around full circle. But Nanny Amie graduated college and figured out what she wanted to be when she grew up - and it was not a full time Nanny. So that left me with a conundrum and find a new sitter.
I didn't want to put them in day care so I needed to find someone to come to my house and watch my two angels (or demons depending on their moods). Well the worry wart in me was freaking out. How do I find someone? Well, I did. I found someone.
Today was the trial run. Erin came over to my house (after a rave recommendation from a friend of mine). I snuck out of the house so C didn't freak out and collapse on the ground in tears. I was so worried all day. How were my babies doing. I tried calling and no one answered. I was worried. But like I said, this was a trial run. My mom was right next door in case of emergency. And about 20 minutes later I called back, and got an answer. It was a relief.
When I got home I asked both kids if they had fun and if they wanted Erin to come back and play with them. They both answered with a resounding "YES". So I guess that is also a glowing recommendation and Erin will be coming back.
The only problem I had was my own unease. I know, I have no doubt, things will be just fine this August when my parents are gone. I have no doubt the boys will be fine and safe in my house with Erin. I also have no doubt I will worry the whole time they are out of my supervision with her - or anyone. That unfortunately, is the nature of being a mother. You worry and no one will take better care of your children then you. NO ONE.